There’s one firefly responsible for the pasture
of clover and vetch and cow patties
flecked with the pesky birth of orange.
The bathroom door unlocks, sending
three thousand volts into my elbow
like my naked feathered and overfed
soul is a funnybone. Pipeline
detergent in my corporeal eye
had me told stories of the blind
and my luck, because I left early
and look out the window at
one burnout bug.
I dwell on the week old calf
bounding with a life he found
in knocked knees, his hard hoofed security
beating hard behind lined eyes. The vanity
that nature affords. I dwell on the way he passed
through the hot fence, and the kind of knowing
that led him back through. We live on a shred
of wild spearmint off a dirt road, free ranged
in geometric superficies, to be overstepped
or slid between. To be grazed and managed.
To be dismantled at the season’s close
or the borders split.
In the meantime he sucks the heifers quarters
like they’ve offered premature
mammary molasses. I was building a clown
out of steel wool and pelts, but I can see
the snails all pent up and pointed towards
the tips of the brome stalks, each one
deluded when it comes to the distance
of good soil, when it comes to the flick
they followed like meteors. Because
when all zinc and calendula retire
the firefly leaves her post and the calf skull
cracks twice as buds reach for the sun.
PASTURE RAISING
by Annabelle Williams
Annabelle Williams is a dairy grazing apprentice at an organic farm in Maine. She loves festivity in every form. Other streams of her consciousness can be found at the Gorko Gazette, Homer Humanities, or in conversation.